There's been so much stuff on my mind. Working hard to make sure the Fall gets up and goes. That worship goes, that small groups go, that youth goes...
There's so much I want to write on - and then it's 1a.m. and I drift off to sleep.
Blogging has become an outlet for me, but there's so much stuff I never get to outlet.
On the same day I'm as excited as I've ever been about ministry - and the next moment I'm contemplating leaving. I see the potential in one second and the next second I can't see the forest for the trees.
I long for so much and then I see me and wonder how could anything ever happen. I am so unreliable! I am so uncertain! I am so far away from the mountain top!
But I'm discovering here in the valley (thank you Scott and others) that I'm completely and unconditionally loved. At the same time I'm realizing that hasn't hit me as it was intended to. God loves Me! As I am! That's never going to change! Even right here in the valley.
Scott - I want to say with you, I just don't care - bring it on God - and yet I find myself caring. Caring about the garbage like my appearances and what others think.
I'm getting in on the journey - in not "there yet". But I'm in!
There's actually something very practical that Vun and I are doing about it - that I can't share as of yet - the time will come. But it's about the "dance" - it's about freedom - it's about discovering and experiencing the "true -one of a kind - uncomparable - unconditional love of God."
I'm so glad for those of you who are close to me - who know me - who love me - who pray for me - who keep me in line - who tell me when I suck, not to hurt me but to make me a better follower.
There's much I need to write about - I think I will pace myself...and try to let it all out slowly...
Posted by ed | TrackBackThe Lord is really moving among all His followers! Your message seems to ring from many people's lips. People are tired of living a game. They yearn for the real life. Eternal life, which does NOT begin when we die, but the moment we are born again.
I know He has been working on me and my wife and I see evidence in others too. It truly is an exciting time. Not a perfect time, just exciting. These ARE the last days, and Christ is pouring out His Spirit on us! Come soon Lord Jesus!
Posted by: Peter