Easter, like Christmas has lost a little intensity for me. I'm missing the wonder...I'm missing the shock...I'm even missing the excitement...I'm missing all these things the more time I spend experiencing these things as a pastor. It ends up as services to get ready for more than...oh well.
My experience this easter. Just some other services. I don't mean to be judgemental, I really don't, I was even involved (last minute) in our easter service.Even had fun singing with one of my closer friends (but just having fun isn't the point.) However, at the end of the day, I left both Friday and Sunday longing for something more. Over and over I'm hit by the question, is this what church is supposed to be all about? Don't ask me why I feel this way, I feel less and less equipped to answer the questions I ask.
I'm longing to be awed by God's presence, drawn to my knees at the sight of his holiness, humbled by his surrender, hurt because of how I've hurt him, and to rejoice at the offer of grace. I'm looking for something that touches my heart and draws me to full surrender, not just for things that have a hard time going beyond my eyes and hears.
I realize this is my view, and it's impacted by lots of stuff, including my shortcomings. I realize the same experience for others is deep, moving and significant...I just long for something else, I just don't know what it is or if it's fair to even long for it.
Posted by edI don't know if I'm looking for an emotional high. I can relate to Keith Green's words, though - "Jesus rose from the dead, you can't get out of bed."
Good Friday was fine. It was more solemn. This is as it should be.
Easter Sunday - I long for more than what we experienced this time around.
Posted by: Darryl